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Friday, February 1st, 2002
9:14 am
Well...here I am, back at Corning. But it just doesn't seem right. I just wish things between me and certain people would go back to how they used to be. I feel as if I'm not a part of their live's anymore.. I'm sorry for not being the same person as I was before, but I honestly don't see where I've changed. Yeah, my hair's a little longer, and I do my make-up a little differently.. but that's about it. It's been awhile since I've updated.. I might do more later..

current mood: blah

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Saturday, July 21st, 2001
12:15 am
I just got back home from my trip. heh Useless it was. About as useless as this thing is getting. I'm thinking of deleting it. It's not like anyone gives a damn what goes on in my life anyways. So yeah.. Maybe I will. Oh. Someone didn't come back to Ny with me. I'm fucking pissed. ;[

current mood: bitchy

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Friday, July 13th, 2001
11:13 pm
Story time.. Okay, I'm not really the superstitous type, but maybe I should be. As we know, today is Friday The 13th. Anyway. I go in this morning around 9..and everything's fine. Well.. at about 9:30-ish...I'm slicing onions. I stuck my fingers in there to hold them in place and all, and well.. I wasn't really paying attention to the size difference in the onions, so.. my finger slipped. It didn't hurt, at all. I walk out into the other room, and say "Paula, I cut my finger". She's just carying on with her work, not really paying attention. This time I say it louder.."Paula! I cut my finger." So she say's "Let me see it." Here I am, holding the end of my finger, and jumping up and down, it didn't hurt. I was just shocked I did something retarted like that. So I show her..and it's not really bleeding, but I took a good size chunk out of it. Eeep. Rita was outside at the time, after we look for band-aides for about 20 minutes I decided I'll put a paper towel on it. I sat on the ground cause I was all light headed. Rita walks in, and she sees me sitting on the floor. She asked what happened, so I showed her. I stood up and started talking to her, when her face just got all blury, and all I saw was black. The next thing I know, I'm on the floor, Paula is patting my back, and Rita just keeps saying over and over, "How in the hell did you manage that?" So I told her.. I was doing exactly what she showed me... heh Oh, I forgot.. The lil piece of chunk was sitting in the onions and I threw it in the garbage. After I stand up again, I light up a cigarette, and Rita is picking through the trash. I was like "What the fuck are you doing?" and she says.. "Trisha! We've got to find the little piece! Take it with you, they can sew it back on." I'm just thinking.. wacko. She is fucking crazy. It wasn't even enough for them to sew on anyways. It was only the fatty tissue at the end of my thumb. Anyways, we bandaged it up, well kinda. I put a paper towel on it and a rubber band at the end. I didn't want to bleed all over. So she's like forcing me to go to the hospital, 5 minutes away, and all I'm worried about is that Darryl or Cody, whomever comes in for me is going to pissed. They're like practically throwing me out of the door..so, I go to the hospital. I get there, and it takes them 20 minutes to register me into the computers, only because I've never been there before..then when I finally see the doctor, they refuse to take care of me because I don't have a parent with me, and I'm not 18. Fucking dicks. So I wait.. about an hour and a half before they finally stick it in a bowl of iodine, and stick a bandage on. They wanted me to go see a fucking plastic surgeon, said it's not gonna heal right. I always heal.. I'll be fine. So yeah.. I go back to work, and there's nothing I can do except run the register. After Rita finally leaves, for about 4 hours.. I sat on the back prep table, and smoked.. That's it. They wouldn't let me do anything. Anyways, these next two days are going to be pretty slow.. I can't do anything, remember? Well, Cody did give me 30 points though. He was offering to give me 120 for writing my name on the wall in blood. Don't ask... Well.. my fingers fine. ;D lol ::shakes head:: I can't believe me...I'm a fucking idiot.

current mood: amused

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Thursday, July 12th, 2001
11:08 pm
I have the feeling my summer is going to be a waste. heh I slept all day. Oh, I might get a snake.. might. tee hee

current mood: content

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Wednesday, July 11th, 2001
10:39 pm
hehe I almost killed Darryl today, the kid I work with. We were talking about caffeine pills, and said he wanted to try some. So.. I go next door to the gas station, and I get a package of them. I come back over, and he says "I wanna get fucked up, give me as many as you're gonna take". I was hesitant, because he's never took them before. So, I take 4, and hand him 4. I told him that 4 pills was 800 mg. He suggested I give him a 5th, and even it off to 1000. I took a 5th one, then handed him one. After about an hour.. he was laying on the floor, almost in tears. He threw up a few times, but hadn't felt better at all. I felt so bad though. I was worried he wasn't going to be able to drive home by himself.. I feel like a bad person now. But shit.. that's what he gets for wanting to take as many as me.. =/

current mood: blah

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Tuesday, July 10th, 2001
11:23 pm
So yeah, nothing that great happened. I picked Peg up from work, and then we went to her house. We just sat around on the back porch. We noticed that it's weird how whenever you meet a guy, or first kiss a guy, or anything important, you always remember every single detail. Like the weather, and what you have on, what they have on, where you're at, what the place looks like and the such.. It's strange. We were talking about all the dumb shit we've done in the past, and all the dumb things that have happened to us. haha Well...there's driving into the ditch, calling Sams Club to get some guys number, "Big Titties!" lmao, getting yelled at for swearing in McDonalds by somebody that didn't even work there, throwing toilet paper rolls in McDonalds, our trips to Wal-Mart, getting caught with beer, this car of guys driving around us singing New Kids on The Block...Oh, shit. There is so much more.. lol I can't believe any of it though.. We're horrible. Especially when we're together. The three of us, when the triads complete. hehehe But yeah. Enough of this..

current mood: crazy

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4:07 pm
I went shopping. ;D I got a shirt, and some pants, and some undies.. ;D Oh, and a Teletubbies toothbrush too. hehe So yeah. I read some disturbing stuff last night, but we're not gonna go into that. Here's the game plan though.. Toni and I are gonna work together, and everything will be just fine.. If I tell you anymore.. than it'll ruin it all.. Maybe it did already. ::shrugs:: Ah well.


Tell me you love me, wipe my tears, and make me realize everything will always be okay. That it will always be only you, and I..forever.

current mood: weird

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Monday, July 9th, 2001
11:42 pm
Peggy and I went over to the mall tonight. Got our tickets. ;D I can't wait. hehe Then we went over to Wal-Mart and to Sally's Beauty Supply, and as we were walking back to the car these two ladies drove past us..They slowed down to almost nothing and the lady in the passenger seat took a picture of us. What the hell? hahah I'm glad I made somebodies day. But we didn't look that weird. I mean, I had on a white shirt, and my gray pants with the bright yellow stripes on the side, and white fur. Oh, hehe It has a little cat head that snaps to the side. Well and yeah, Peggy only had on jeans and a t-shirt.. ::shrugs:: I dunt know. People are getting weird lately. I need'ta get my hair cut, but if we go and get the stuff we want done, maybe I shouldn't. It's long though..well not really long, but it looks funny. ;o Welly, well, well.. Mom's still not home. Grr. She needs to get home. It's just too weird with only me and dad here. I helped Peg color her hair tonight, so now my fingers are blue. hehe Well.. I'm just not interesting enough.. what can I say? ;[

current mood: calm

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Sunday, July 8th, 2001
11:05 pm
I just woke up. I feel all weak and the such. I fucking hate that. I wish my mom would hurry up and get home. I sick of it just being me and dad this weekend. Well..I'm pathetic..

current mood: apathetic

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Saturday, July 7th, 2001
11:54 pm
Peggy calls me this morning at like 9. Kristina never showed up; I had to go in early. I learned something today. hehe I knew was true, but I finally noticed it this morning. But yeah, how different people make you feel different ways. lol I never even payed attention until today. So..here's how it goes. Darryl.. the retarted fuck he is, makes me feel homicidal. Only towards him though. Which could be a good thing. Peggy, god. I don't know. She makes me feel retarted. lol Nah, just kidding. No matter what, she always makes me feel hyper, and giddy, and the such. Cody, well.. Cody makes me feel sedated. It's weird.. but it's so true. This kid is like a sedative. Whether you're pissed, homicidal, all giggly and hyper, and he says one word to you.. it's like a fucking drug[don't worry.. he's not my type, nor would he ever be.. only yew are..] But yeah. I was standing around with Peggy today, and I saw the slicer. Darryl was pissing me off..a lot today. I looked at the slicer, then at his head..and I seriously wondered what it would be like to stick it in there and start slicing.. Naughty, naughty me. Well, christ. I yelled to him today to tell him to come help with something, and he didn't come. So I walk in the back, and stare at him. And he looks at me and says "Bitch, don't wait for me, I'm fucking coming".. ::shakes head:: That's okay.. I think I taught him not to piss me off though.. ;D So yeah, anyways.. after I finally calmed down, and everyone was gone but us..we made these people out of unbaked bread. They were, um, porkin'. So we stuck em in the oven, and baked them so they were all nice and pretty, and we left em for who ever opens tomorrow. Oh..shit. lol Peg and I do. O.o. hahah But yeah.. I hafta tell you something. Apples are yummy. I ate an apple. It was yellow. Yellow apples are yummy. heheheh ;]

current mood: weird

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Friday, July 6th, 2001
5:04 pm
..I had to work with Rita today. lol She's funny as hell. The whole day she kept calling me "Honey/dear/doll.." Those little pet names. Anyways, I'm hoping I get to take over Kristina's schedule. An average of 35 hours a week.. Well, I'm greedy.. what can I say? Seriously though, no one else can do it. There's Rachel and Linda, but they're both closers. There's Cody but he has like 6054985943854 million jobs, he can't. Then there's Darryl and Kelly.. Kelly babysits during the days, she can't, and Darryl.. he started only 3 weeks ago. Peggy can't come in until 4:30 during the week. So that only leaves me unless she's going to hire someone else. If she does..I'm gonna be pissed. I want her hours! Anyways, hehehe I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get the week off that I want. I fucking better. I gave her a big long sob story why I needed it off.. My sister needs a babysitter.. lol That's the real reason.. I kinda just extended it a bit. Quite a bit. lol Well geezum, I need the week off.. I got some people to see! ;]

current mood: hyper

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12:50 am
..I wish..

..that..

..you..

..were..

..here..

..now..

current mood: ..i wish..

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Thursday, July 5th, 2001
11:45 pm
hehe Jessica and I went to.. Denny's. lol She wore my pin that says "Make it a fresh value meal", or something of that sort. Oh, and I ran over a curb.. ;x lol Anyways. I'm not supposed to drive after 9.. because I'm back on probation again cause of those tickets. So it's like 8:30..and just me and my dad are here this weekend, so I'm like "Dad, is it all right if Jessica and I go out..?" He's like "Don't go to any parties, don't go looking for trouble, if you get another ticket, it's your problem not mine". Okay dad. hehe I didn't get a ticket! ::high five:: Anyways, I have to go into work tomorrow at 9, because I get more hours. ;D I'm so proud of Rita. hehe She's giving me 34.5 hours this week. I'ma get some monies. More money for my.. trip? ::shrugs:: She better give me the week I want off, and especially the 23rd.. Right, right, right? Right. Right. Right. ;D

current mood: crazy

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7:04 pm
Do I seem as if I could be a Whitney Johnson? NO! So stop calling my house and asking for her! Alright, these people have called my house about 20 times looking for her. Everytime they call, I tell them they have the wrong number so they hang up.. 10 minutes later, they'll call back.. Grr. Anyways, besides this.. I'm really stressed. I don't know why, but I can't stop smoking..

current mood: annoyed

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1:32 am
"Think I'm going for a walk now.
I feel a little unsteady.
Don't want nobody to follow me..
'cept maybe you.
I can make you happy if you weren't already.
I can do a lot of things, and I do..
"

::sigh:: Someday the jealousy is really going to get to me..

current mood: jealous

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Wednesday, July 4th, 2001
2:25 pm
JASON! Christ..

current mood: angry

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Tuesday, July 3rd, 2001
10:26 pm
Distance means nothing to me. It only makes me want to see you longer.. My words just like a mentioned kiss with every letter..they are growing stronger. I don't think I've ever really believed in love. Alright, I have a few times, but now.. It's like the harder I push to try to love somebody more than I do now, I just don't feel it. It's like it gets stronger and stronger, then all of a sudden disappears. So it's kind of hard to believe in it..ya know? I think love is a lost emotion.. For anyone, I do love now, or have ever loved.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for everything..

current mood: crappy

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8:26 pm
I love the way Fruit Loops smell before you add the milk. Ahhhh. My mom like, just attacked me. No more being all retarted like. I'm going to let myself shrivel up like a super model.. Ramble, ramble, ramble. I guess I'ma go. ;D

current mood: dorky

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12:44 pm
Gah! I'm bored, and tired, and lonely.. ;[

current mood: lonely

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12:21 pm
Tomorrow's my moms birthday. I don't know what to get her.. Hopefully I'll think of something. I'm really tired though.. I think I'm gonna go back to bed.

current mood: sleepy

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